Morning everyone! Gamma and Corey had a good night at the hospital last night. He didn't want to wake up for me when I got there so he waited until around 9:30pm and we were up all night. No worries here - it was worth every second.
We have a Care Conference with the doctors on Thursday. I guess we are back to having to make some decisions on how and where we want to go from here. In the six weeks we have been there we've had at least 4 of these conferences, so what's one more? It stresses everyone out to know that another one is here and the news we will receive and the decisions we will be faced with. I can only hope that whatever decisions are made, they are the right decisions for Corey. How do you know what's right? How does a parent make such decisions? Why is a parent faced with such decisions? I spend a lot of my days asking these questions over and over and unfortunately I never find the answer.
I know miracles exist as I have seen them and I pray for one with every breath that I take. I know we always have to be careful for what we wish for as sometimes the worse things in life actually turn out to be the best things in life and we wish them away. I just try to make sense of it all and it's like a puzzle with a missing piece and it will never be complete. I want Corey to be complete, but only if it is his choice. As a Gamma I tend to be a little selfish - well, I think I earned that right, but it is selfish and I have to understand it's Corey & GOD's decision and I will respect what ever decision they choose.
I love him with my entire body and soul and I can only pray that he comes through this. I ask that each of you pray for the miracle that I want, but most importantly the miracle that Corey wants and so much deserves.
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Tammy. God gives the ok to pray for these miracles. He gives us his promise of hearing our prayers. I know god sees what is going on in little Corey's life. However God says we can ask anything in His name believing and he would give it to us. There is one condition to the prayre. It must be God's will. We can not pray against the will of God. I, as well as thouands have been praying for Corey and a miracle that he would be made whole, healthy and full of life. God has control. For Corey to be made whole, would make us all so happy and bring so much joy. At the time we know this, Gods plan can still be different. A better prayer for us all to pray, would simply be this: Lord, we love you and you know we love Corey. We know God you are the miracle worker. We know you hear us when we pray. We have seen Corey in his sickness. We know many things have been tried, and he is still with us. God we ask you to look into his life and his future. You know what lies ahead. Lord heal him Your way, Your will and Your time. Guide us in making whatever decisions are best for him. Lord please don't let him suffer. He is your child, Lord. You gave him to us, and we are so thankful for every day, every minute an second that goes by. Lord after all these words, we simply ask Lord, for your will to be done. Let our hearts be prepared to accept your will. May we find peace and comfort in knowing Lord, you will not let him suffer. Thank you for his smile, we will remember always. Amen. Tammy, Courtney and Corey. The Calhoun family loves you all and praying for strength, peace, grace and mercy. I know and believe in miracles and we will trust God and His will for all. Blessings to all.
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